Dreams? visions...

the bus took a while today,
both going there and back...
yeah i've been taking the rapidKL bus to move around nowadays
even to go to college :D (hey its cheap ._.)

had something called directed investigation today
and it was my first class -_-
kudos for bus being late +1
D.I. is like a assessment test but you do it in a group
and apparently they split it into 2 days
sounds fun eh? :D well this time not exactly...
kinda screwed up my DI -_- the questions are mostly related to each other
(plus the bus being late <_<)
so if you don't get the previous answer correct or done...
you'll be dead, and very lost :D

and when i was on the bus home
i was thinking...well this is what i usually visualize anyway
a broken human heart, not shattered or cracked
its still flesh and inside it, there's a spirit? a ghost of you maybe?
or just a mysterious presence in there
i tend to think of large spears, like those seen in anime and stuff xD
(hey they look cool) going through the heart o_O
like going in one end and out the other side,
and being lodged in the body itself :)
vanishing that person's hope, strength, emotions? stuff like that ._.
and that person walks around without meaning...

my mind plays with visions like that -_- no matter how abstract or gross it maybe :|
kinda like it though...sometimes have sad visions too and they do make me cry -_-
or at least sob..
that's how bad it is xD
(or is it a good thing? hmm..)

joanne seems to be having trouble now....again
can't cope with SAM's March intake apparently
well girl, you gotta work for your results...
they won't appear out of the blue if you keep slacking =_=
and i don't know what kheng yu's doing to help -_- heck i don't even want to..
this shall go into the bad memories box :D
and i hope she gets what she wants...or they

time for me to sign off :)
sorry if this post seems a little awkward
but i'm really tired so yeah x_x
brain not functioning xD
night..

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its.....

























































yeah...empty,
hello world?...



darn............

here comes... [P]

last two days (well weekends)
had revision driving classes with my instructor for the last time
tomorrow's my driving test yay :D

ok no i'm not happy about it -_-
hope i don't screw up Dx
meh..and i don't know if this should be considered
good or bad but i'm skipping college tomorrow too yay :3
won't be writing a letter -_- since its just 1 day
if i do it'll be freaking troublesome to get all the signatures..

sides that i've got work piling up...again
(oh the hell whats wrong with SAM =_=)
well it isn't much...so i'll hurry up and finish'em before anymore turn up xD
end-semester exam on the 17th of May too...

and recently i've started playing The Sims 3 o_O
heh...its only for the house building and character part....
i don't exactly "play" out the character
mainly just design houses :3 and sims..
its a real time waster yes :|

oh and sorry i haven't been updating as frequently as i used to..
just not that many highlights this week ._.

might wanna hang out before exam week starts
but well thats just me :3
hope they got time :/

well guess thats all for now?
till my next post :) seeYa

Musiclass

ahhhh
today my class had a sort of like a
musical day, 3 of us brought our guitars (supposed to be 5 -_-)
played throughout the day whenever we could
we even had our lecturer Mr. Chan
(whom we had no idea actually played an instrument)
play a Spanish classical piece for us O_O
he was godlike :O
wish i caught a video of that...

the sad part was that my guitar was gone from my hands 90% of the time -_-
them peoples keep taking it away before i could even play anything...wth

lately stuff like that has made me think of how well i fit in the class
not so well it seems :/
they're just really self-centered and cliquey,
none i can click to (not even befriend! -_-)

my class is also filled with not-so-willing people it seems
(would love to say wimps but nah that sounds so backstabby ._.)
started out with 24 members and now down to 19,
plus another 3 people considering quitting SAM -_-
the hell...maybe its cause of the class,
most of us find it hard to concentrate in this class
cause of a few buffoons that suka suka make noise
and one guy that monopolizes everything (he thinks the world revolves around him wth!)
then, some prolly too pressured by the workload and expectations.
i too wanted to consider quitting but uh, i ain't that rich...
and no i'm not quitting just yet ;)

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

currently my class is the smallest in SAM
and i think it will get smaller still -_-
hope they stay....

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and i wonder how she's doing...

this Saturday

woke up at 6 today
just to get on the 9am bus to ikano power center -_-
was gonna study with elyssia in the morning
at starbucks while waiting for the others to arrive

well we did, physics
and we got a present for erina tan :)
which is for her birthday on tuesday...
a book titled "Message in a Bottle" by Nicholas Sparks
it was interesting -

the story is about a girl named Teresa
that finds a message in a bottle at the beach
a letter written by Garrett to his beloved Catherine,
driven by the weird emotion that intrigued her,
this letter leads her to search for him

and when she finds him they fall into a love affair

they both find a relationship that is real and promises happiness

but soon she finds out that Garrett still loves his late wife,

and he will have to forget his past in order to have a future with her

the story is about the power of love i'd imagine

seen the reviews...and yes i wrote this mainly on reviews alone lolz

there's also a 1999 movie based on it btw...

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0139462/plotsummary

seems like a very interesting story indeed lol, good choice ely..

guess that x-ray vision thing really works...

plusssss, the story...since its about love

has sex scenes in it....which erina would undoubtedly enjoy :3 knowing her..lol xD

don't get me wrong i still think its a good heartfelt book x_x

though i didn't even read it....maybe i would :)

ahhhhhhh, then when they finally arrived 

(30 minutes off the set time, had planned for that really -_-)

we went to eat at Tony Romas, some fine dining for the day ;)

the portions were huge x_x really, very

i could barely finish half of my RM20 pasta Dx (wasted...ish)

well most of us couldn't anyway...next time if anyone's going there, 

take my advice and - share <_<

not that we didn't want to when we ordered ours, 

just didn't know they were so...BIG T_T

lunch wasn't too bad...wasn't all that good either

the girls had to leave after it,
then we(sausage fest) went to play 4 on 4 pool xD damn fun

i didn't stay for the movie though....
no mood to hang out with a group i'm not exactly comfortable with

xian yao and jit sun were there, invited them for lunch even though i kinda dislike them

reason why i didn't stay all that long....
miss the old days where we had really close friends/groups :/

(sorry to xian yao and jit sun if u guys are reading this, i have issues -_- ignore me eh :D)

might wanna get another outing later this year...hopefully we'll be free..

ben's  gonna be leaving early this year, 

maybe have a farewell party :) close friends ONLY..

(no more class reunions okay ely)

well after the gathering i went home....chilled a little

then suggested we(my family) go to PC Fair at KLCC :D

it was lame, honestly...though at least i really got to check out all the latest laptops

was planning on going tmrw but since we went today,

tmrw i'll be free :) back to my assignments i'd say...i have to....must

just finished watching The Tooth Fairy...

yes a little outdated...but yea i rarely go to the movies...

nice show...even my dad laughed out loud xD

was touching at the end as most disney productions are and always will be, cliche much

alright i better stop here lol...sides, nothing more left to talk about..

yen yen wants to read...and its like 12:50 now & she's sleepy

well then, g'night all :)

of strings and sounds

the guitar really picks me up whenever i'm down it seems
eh...maybe just playing music makes me feel better,
that i'm not sure of
- btw playing the black electric acoustic not the one on the picture there>>

no i'm not emo now -_-
helps when i'm stressed too...or bored lol
and somehow i'm getting a lot of
"hey, cheer up lah u look so down and emo" ; "whats with that emo face dei"

truth is i don't know myself <_<
maybe i was born this way? maybe i had too many heartbreaks? (not entirely gf probs please x_x)
maybe my face has stuck into that emo posture cause i've done that a lot for the past 18 years.
aku tak tau =( - (i don't know)

ok well i am a little swayed by something, though not entirely teruk

hmm...had dinner with henry tey boon kang just now,
plus a few other friends :3
hui ee and sharon and ee ling(although i never met her, awesome! first chance :D)
was kinda simple...we all being poor people so yea :3
ate cheese baked rice and it was pathetic xD @ ming tien (warning u guys)
i mean even for a simple mean i tasted tomato more than the cheese itself
and the rice was just plain white rice Dx lame..

this Saturday will be going out again...
its a class "reunion" at theCurve
can't say i'm really excited and looking forward to it
but its not like i wouldn't wanna go either :3
it just got out of hand from what i had in mind...thats all
hope it'll be a good time to catch up with them
and turns out i'll be "hosting" the event...wth Dx wtv -_-
good practice for event planning in the future xD

actually dozed off on the way to the dinner
so yea i guess i really am tired
although i don't really feel sleepy now ._.
either way...night :)

finally over :D

yayyyyy
finally all the assignments and presentations
are DONE with xD
can relax without the pressure now heheh

today's presentation was fine apparently
i only prepared it yesterday night o_O
got above average only though :3 (not "very good")
pretty good for last minute work lol

been really busy for the past week or so
although it spreads through 2 weeks,
i had practically 7+ days of pure torture -_-

took some time off to relax for part of today
although i still have work to do...
at least its not that bad
come to think of it i actually appreciate doing simple homework now :)

the past several days have been hectic
still managed to keep a few highlights though heh..
i think it was yesterday
Mr.Chan (a.k.a Jackie Chan), my physics lecturer
was talking about electric fields and charged particles
when suddenly it became a topic on guys and girls o_O

apparently guys are positive (+) and girls are negative (-)
he used that concept to explain the repulsion and attraction of charges lolz smart xD
then quote : "class, you know ah, guys have 3 legs"

everyone in class was "whaaa?"
- "one leg is very very short"

*dead silence*....

followed by "omgggggg omgg mr.chaaaannnn!"
"this is not biology!!" ; "why la u telling us stuff like that" ;
"we have a girl here!!" ; "i never knew mr.chan was that dirty minded, like us!"

for those who still don't get what the 3rd leg is,
www.google.com ^^
your guide to everything explicit, dirty and basically to life itself
yes, go google "am i stupid?" and it will give u 88,700,000 results of stupidity test
all totally proving that you really ARE stupid 8D
don't take this seriously :P

gonna keep working hard from now on
goodbyeeee laziness! (and procrastination)
college's starting to change me...hmm..
for the better :3 i hope.

wellllllllll
gotta go sleep now :)
lots of catching up to do in dreamland xD

its 10:53..

only a few more left to go

the hardest part of the month soon to come

only ESL ,IT and Malaysian Studies left...

surprisingly physics was kinda easy

only worried about next week's presentations

recently just asked my dad if i could get a new laptop

he agreed, yay xD

but spent the entire evening looking through the net

to find the laptop i want, plus a good deal for it

theres soooooooo many to choose from omg x_x

tomorrow i'll be going to ipoh :)

yep, hometown

wonder if i'll be able to finish my documentation + ESL presentation draft :S

never had a good record of doing work there...

been a good rough week though

hope i get some time to breathe again after my presentations

now even a few days feel like months...

mid-year tests coming soon

gonna study i guess, finally something i'm more familiar with? lol

hope we all(yes, me friends too) do well in our courses ;)

best wishes everyone...

Le time

5 minutes to midnight
its a Linkin Park song by the way
sorta cool, been a while since i've listened to them anyway

nothing much to talk about today
though i'll be doing a mini planner of sorts...here
just wanted to put it up somewhere
(and i think i should make this blog private to friends only o_O)
since i'm posting about me life here ._.

7th Apr : Adobe Photoshop Workshop at ??:?? am/pm ._.
8th Apr : Physics quiz chapter 3 & 4, Malaysian Studies written assignment due
9th Apr : Physics initial project plan due
10th Apr : - (maybe do note taking for ESL)
11th Apr : - (ditto =3)
12th Apr : IT Documentation due + presentation, Malaysian Studies Test 3
13th Apr : ESL presentation, Editorial meeting (present cover) 3pm D21

after that i'm not sure?
prolly an outing on saturday...
so..

17th Apr : Outing/study

thats about it i guess...for now
just noticed i'm never gonna be free on weekdays :/
there's one event per day x_x oh crap...

well...hope i have enough time...
crazy week ahead :(

strings

12:09

the clock hits the 10th minute

the quartet plays of yellow and of clocks

peaceful, serene and relaxing

melodies that enlighten the auditory

well i'm supposed to be doing my IT and finishing up for tmrw..

still got lots to do (i think)

but i'm just dropping by

to put up a little window into my last few days :3

hmm lets start with Saturday

had the entire day away from home

first stop was sunway, shopped till 4 i think...

was kinda spontaneous since my bro was going there for a gathering

my mum thought we'd just go there and shop around for stuff

and guess what....have a little faith :3 its in my hands nao :DDD

been reading it while on the bus to and from college

after reading a few of mitch's books

you kinda get a feel of his writing style

which Have A Little Faith really embodies

on Sunday i practically stayed at home the entire day

chat a lot and relaxed with some classical pieces 

(lol yes i know not my type but occasionally i do listen)

i like those with violins and pianos...not so much the other stuff..

i'd imagine doing a classical piece with the addition of a guitar,

now how would that sound hmm...

well today its back to stress

very gloomy, yes..cause i've been slacking too much -_-

currently listening to string quartets covers..

they're covers of popular songs like yellow by coldplay (thus the first few lines)

but played with a few violins and a cello...4 string instruments

thus the name string quartet..

ok i better get back to my assignment...

will have to "burn oil" tonight ._.

the light at the end of the tunnel

is still very very far away...

of Merlin lost

12:32am
some merlin soundtrack playing in the background (thanks ely)
warm indirect lightning illuminating my room instead of that glaring fluorescent bulb
and chatting with fiona on msn cause her skype died on her ._.

class ended quite early today, at 1pm
still really happy that i was able to finish the draft (yessssss! xD)
i went to relax a little and hung out with classmates till 3
then i bumped into timmy and michie again while waiting for the bus
me and tim have been bumping into each other a lot lately i wonder why o_O lol, le michelle's curse O_O
yeah, cause she just joined in March...and before she came i rarely saw tim around..

so we chatted a lot, waited even longer for the bus which was unusually late...
later went to tropicana city to lepak a little and grab a bite
tim had to leave early though, didn't manage to join us for "tea"
well it was more like a light dinner ._.

sleeping at 3 past midnight for the previous 2 nights have really zombified me x_x
had a nice long chat a while ago, we kinda talked about anything...which was nice,
no inhibitions...

darn, my eyes can't even stay open now...
been a busy day =)
as it has and always will be...i hope..
would just hate to sit still and decay now
since i've gotten pretty used to this lifestyle..although tiring
uh well, goodnight everyone... :3

at last

three whole days

of late nights and crazy levels of stress

i've finally done my draft x_x

2,214 words full of it...

can't believe the toll i'm putting on myself

who ever expected SAM to be such a tough 10 months

time management they say, the key..

well yeah...its about time i start doing that x_x

feeling really drained =_=

and my brain feels numb cause i've been sleeping at 3

just to finish that stupid #%&@$! draft -_-

well okay enough ranting...

its 12:44am now

earlier during IT Studies

we had to start doing our documentation for the database project...thingy...

and as we heard from our class rep. there was going to be 

a change in the due date, which was originally the 8th..

it was being extended (yay! =D)

our IT coach, Ms. Sukhminder announced the date and

almost half the class had a myocardial infraction,

"class, i have to bring the date closer a bit,
so your project is due on the 6th" - ms. sukhminder (^.^)

( O_O)!   ( x_x)    (T.T )    (x_X||)   (x.x )   (0_O||)  - the class

"yaaa, i'm sorry...i do care about you guys but
the SACE board wants it then" - ms.sukhminder

we told her that we were already half dead
trying to finish all our assignments/projects in time
then she went on to tell us
that it wasn't her choice
since the SACE board wants our projects so badly
and she felt sad for us cause she cared
and if we don't hand up in time we'd fail our IT x_x

"well..april fools :3" - ms.sukhminder

( OMG)!   ( OmG)    (OMG )    (oMG||)   (omg )   (0MG||)  - the class


i sat at the back the whole time and didn't really respond to her "bad news"
cause i was pretty much numb from all the late nights and unfinished projects
but was pretty amused at the end of it lolz

uh well this post is a little too long now
and i should be sleeping right now x_x
well gnight...