memories

its 11:33pm
been doing maths for the past 10 minutes maybe
just got back from a day of walking , driving , going out ,
chatting with friends(maybe someone special)
and waiting...
exhausted to say the least, and i barely started doing assignments due next week
theres 7 altogether and all different from the last, to be done in
one sunday (which apparently has turned gloomy)

and to be honest i'm not stressed...its like i'm expecting to be expelled from SAM
despite her leaving our intake to the march intake
i doubt it'll be any different
with kheng yu still in my class/group (for the record, i'm not gay -_-)
at the end of it all i think i will dread my college life
i hate it now...

memories memories, they live in your head like little fairies
bad memories eat you up while good ones are heartfelt...
kheng yu's a bad memory
not insulting his very existence, but thats how it is after joanne

the night before the last i made a vow that i would care
well its just a mediocre poem-like written promise
though i can only if she lets me, i haven't heard from her today
and i don't have to.
i'm starting to think that she's better off with someone else
and not cause i am feeling down and useless right now but through real thought
i don't feel close to her anymore
and the feeling is probably mutual.

maybe because of how things are now we've stopped trying
i've missed the nights of me and you, joanne