The second university semester actually starts near the end of July, that is about 3 more months away. I have got plenty not done and still slow going, just wished I had an instruction manual to guide me through everything. Too bad it isn't that simple.
I don't know what awaits me to be honest (okay who does?). I can't really find the proper scene to place into the jigsaw puzzle in my head. Not really sure what will happen to put it simply. I think I've also quite ran out of hope for anything. Right now as one would quote William Shakespeare, "Life is but a walking shadow". I haven't found anything real to look forward to. Pretty dangerous from a military standpoint, not knowing and not deciding upon anything. Maybe ignorance is bliss but to me it's hell, closer to something of being unsure, and letting whatever currents guide me. Out of control. It sucks really.
I can't find that much reason to continue writing on a blog too, though I still try to just for the heck of it. Quite envy those who can write countless entries, about almost anything and everything. I guess senses have yet to discover euphoria, so I cant really find things to talk about. Probably when I start being more independent I should.
A word most fitting to be the title should be "Lost" though. But it would be a little too blasé don't ya think? The current title could very well be my lousy attempt at making it sound complex, sophisticated. Nevermind, it is.
I feel like changing the layout and title of this blog, to what I have yet to decide but that merlin avatar has to go as well.
- Topher
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